Fall into a Narnia Winter... and other things Hemmingway didn't write.

So many thoughts and feeling surrounding this time of year. I like the temperature change, but I also get this feeling in my bones, and I know winter is on the way. Sure, if you have ever been to Austin, in the winter, you know it is mild at best. But the change of the seasons still affect me greatly.

Let me start by listing all the great things about fall, and then I will tell you why I feel the looming of a Narnia Winter, where it is always winter and never Christmas.

Fall in Texas, means Football (Boomer Sooners! Don't judge me, I still love my State), the change in temp, where the high is 82 and not 102. Everyone starts to dress like it is winter. In the words of my friend Amanda we "Dress to the Illusion" The sky is beautiful, but sunset gets earlier, and earlier. Drinking Coffee at all hours of the day and night becomes a source of lifeblood. Entertainment starts to shift from water sports, to more cultural indoor activities, such as art shows, musicals & plays, and fall festivals. The State Fair of Texas and Octoberfest happen. Pubs with indoor seating become more crowded, and Coffee Porters & Chocolate Stouts are on hand to help you prepare for winter.

But on the flip side, I know that winter is around the corner. I must, rid my house of all the things that make it feel cluttered or sad. I know when winter hits, I will be spending a lot more time at my home. I tend to hibernate in the winter. It is when I recharge, and I become a moody, introspective artist. I honestly hate winter. I feel a more heightened awareness of my relationship status. There is nothing wrong with being single folks, but this guy sure wishes that he had someone when it's cold outside.

I had a 2 winters where I wasn't single. One was awesome, and one was the beginning of the end. I shall refrain from looking backwards, as I know that it is not productive, and I don't wish to relive that pain. I tell you this to say, that being in love in the winter was everything I dreamed it would be and more. I was less moody, and a hopeless romantic. I worked really hard to make each date special.

I imagine that most creative types can relate to my winter blues. The cold, and lack of sun gives you a lot of time to think, and reflect, and ponder the future, past and present.

In this time in my life of transition, I spend most my days being introspective. I know that in order for my transition to make a truly positive change in my life, I have to work through a lot of stuff that has been repressed.

Quite frankly I am a bit tired from this transition. Yes, I am thriving, but it is lonely. There is a lot of isolation involved in getting yourself together. It is hard work! I know that one day, when the time is right I will find that person, who loves me for me. That person I will spend the rest of my life with, but for now... I know the cold nights are coming, and the moody artist in me is a tough critic. With the coming of winter, and holidays, I will move forward. Hopefully looking into the new year with new eyes, and new adventures. But for now I wait!!!! Wait for winter to come.