I must be honest. I am struggling right now! My hormone levels are dangerously low for a male or female. I have been running on a deficit and my body is feeling it. I know this is part of the process but my emotions have been getting the best of me. I feel so much right now. Stress is high and the winds of change are ever blowing.
I am trying to keep moving forward and write music. Go hang out with people, and go do stuff I like and want to do. Even if that means alone. I know *gasp* alone! I want to be an independent man. One who is not reliant on anyone else to make him happy or to cling too in order to go out and live life. I would love to have a companion one day. I desperately desire that, however I am working on my relationship goals now. My goal is to love being me, so that I can enjoy learning who I am as a "we" or "us"
I know it will get easier to not stress when my testosterone gets back to where it should be. In the meantime I will continue to fight for happiness. Most of all I will remember my limits and conserve energy as needed.
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